when i was young

when i was young i drank
when i was young i took drugs
when i was young i smoked too much
when i was young i fucked the wrong girls

but i am still not old

the good guy

i always did my best
tried to make sure i
treated them well
and did what i should

often i failed
made mistakes
and sometimes
i regretted them

sometimes

what it is

i had a day
where i thought
of nothing
i did nothing
in fact
i dont even remember
why i lived it

tomorrow maybe
the same
but
overall it is
a feeling i get
sometimes

and sometimes
i choose
what i will be

sometimes i choose
my motivation

otherdays
i just am

so as it goes
on i change
my mind
i think about
those days
that should
have been

the days
i decided
to do nothing

and i look back
and try
to remember why
i wasted all i had

and i cannot
answer
the question

i just did

will i avoid
making
these mistakes again

maybe

but only time
will tell